great news

great news ppl..

my stupid camera is working back...

i guess..

hope it can be use during d kerja amal crap thing....

im seriously wondering wat did my bro did until he made it work back..

i was really hoping dat it gets spoiled i can get 2 buy a new 1..

looks like now,

all i got 2 do is 2 wait...

n wait..

till it rots...

haih...

pouring feelings

*winks

*winks

they told me d truth..

i do sound as if im sad..

k..

its true..

i am sad...

but im trying 2 move on wif my freaking life...

wat i found is dat its very annoying

wen u r trying 2 move on in freaking life but surely there would something dat will be bothering us like hell. i seriously hate it. im having difficulties 2 go on.

dis is d reason im most of them im emo or bad mood..

all the im trying 2 move on. but there would be bothering me.

my use 2 be counselors..

1. mumi1
2. mumi2
3. lil' sis

are the oni ppl where i can open up my feelings..

but now, i dnt feel like doing dat ady..

i have no idea wa really bothering me..

there is stg..

but i cnt figure it..

its reli haunting me like hell..

i cnt eat properly now days..

might be coz im fasting..

but i dnt think dats d reason..

i hv no idea wat 2 do..

wanna try 2 talk wif her..

but i dnt 1 her 2 be in trouble coz of me...

raya house n announcement

jazjaz hse raya!

lol
now sitting down blogging through her notepad here..
xD

lalala~

laughing badly now..
irritating juju wif my annoying laughs..
hahahaha!!

k,

before i forget!
yesterday i got a sms...
4om yen fong..
it says dis,

hey people,

pls be informed dat rangers enrolment is on d 3rd of oct.

please tell ur form 4 ranger frens.

and prepare what you are suppose to.

-teng kuan-

ya..

so..

dis is wat igot 4om yen fong wen i was at el tuition..

lucky thing nobody got a heart attack wen i received it..

lol

juju now is now rotting like hell...

ai ling day dreaming..

jazjaz dalam jamban doing ntg...

doing toilet shopping in d toilet i guess..

me LMAO for ntg..

LMAO

erm,

ai ling wondering d hell am i crapping in here..

because she is totally blurr wat am i crapping..

bwahahahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhahahahahahahah!!!

nah~

she is actually waiting 4 me be done wif d blog..

lol

juju,

poking me like hell..

coz of d song by All American Reject- I wanna..

playing with d notepad..

bullying juju...

snapping photo wif juju...

jazjaz...

finally...

me...

*i look like a small kid*

MOM PISS~

well,

mom got piss at midnite thx 2 my wonderful genius idiotic bro whom is my dad's pet...

y?

k..

as u guys my camera..

d camera dat i always bring 2 skool n so on,

got wet thx 2 him...

=]

bro went 4 his fucked up prefect's outing at his head's house...

at there they played water games n so on...

but i dnt get this is,

why d hell mz he bring he got darn wet clothes in2 his bag?!

does he even noe dat d camera is in it!!

did he even check whether is there anything in d god darn bag?!

anything electronic?!

doesnt he has brains 4 it?!

shit him..

he gets on my nervous sometimes...

no scratch it...

ALL D TIME!

gah~!

i have no idea wat 2 do now..

mom says dat they not gonna buy a new want ady..

she wants us 2 use d old camera agn..

wif d role..

hate it man..

=.="

shit..

i reli want a new camera...!!

wat i 1 is a nikon camera..

DSLR D3000

its an awesome camera..

but...

*why theres always a but 1?!*

k..

but..

its tooooooooo expensive...

it cost about RM2 288?!

wat d hell?!

its freaking expensive!!

although dis camera has cool features..

but dad is so not gonna buy it...

haih...

i wnt able 2 convince dad dis time...

his kinda sad wat happen 2 it dis time..

its worst~

T__T

wat am i gonna do?

i need it 4 my kerja amal..

gah~!!

NOOOO!!

ppl, jz get a gun me..

a riffle atleast..

take it..

n shoot my head off..

i have no idea wat 2 do now..

i feel like wanna go out 4om d house..

go out 4 a walk...

ignore my parents, bro n so on..

jz wanna ignore..

wanna get a peace of my mind...

i reli need dat..

desperately..

but wat can i do..

due 2 my miss behavior...

mom n dad locks me up in d room every each single day...

especially d weekends..

*mumi 1, i noe u will be hapi about dis..*

idiot..

bro came up 2 me and ask me wat happen 2 his counter strike?

he taught i delete it..

*coz i always threaten him*

nah~

i did nt.

i checked d computer desktop..

the game was there...

but oni dat its in mircosoft words logo..

got curious wats wrong..

decided 2 check it..

10 mins laterr...

i find myself playing dat stupid addiciting game!!

hahahahhaha!!

when he got bak 4om his dance practice, i told him wat happen...

he was piss off out of sudden..

screamed at me..

i stare at him..

n walk away..

conclusion...

there's no point of helping dis type of ppl...

they always think u r d mean 1..

while we r not..

i helped him 2 get game bak n instead of telling me tq, he scream at me..

well bro,

i only can tell u dis...

GO TO HELL!

IM NOT GONNA HELP U ADY!

AFTER DIS IF D GAME GOT DELETED, NOT MY FAULT!

U ASK 4 IT!

=]

persuades paras~~~

...

begging him is such a hastle!

he noes d programs!!

he noes where 2 masuk an so on..

crap la he..

dude,

plz la..

download it 4 me..

plz..

we are suppose 2 have fun...

remember?
so wat ben is no more here..

doesnt mean u got 2 quit doing it...

common my dear partner( bro )

plz..

do it..

we got 2 make it fun!!

=]

haih...

im still sad about it..

but wat d hack?

i got 2 move on...

=]

fuck...

fuck him

fuck them

fuck dat fucked up bitch

=]

lalala~

gone mad dis past few days..

somehow..

dont noe y..

T___T

mom thinks dat i drink 2 much of sugar..

NO!

its not true..

i did not..

might be coz im too sad..

dats y..

been keeping all sort of stuff 2 myself these days...

didnt spill it out 2 any1...

its driving me cray...

bing quite..

didnt bother any1...

some how..

gone insane..

b'day wishes 2 d monkeys, babi n bdk kcik...

HAPI B'DAY 2 MY BOTH PARENTS

(THEY R DIVORSE SOMEHOW)

PHAN AI LI N THAM VIVIAN

HAPI ADVANCE B'DAY 2 D BOTH BABI(tham winnie) N BDK KECIK(pinky cheong)!!

=]

ppl,

BD = BJ...

lol

speechless day/nite..

finally dis post is ready..
took me exactlly 3 days 2 do it..
wat d hell?!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


i found dat dis ppl r scary every time.
x tentu pasal we will kena.
damn them. they would harm u until they get wat they 1..

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i dnt get it.
y do ppl change?
G2 change tremendously 4 no reason. H n i r wondering wats wrong wif her?
seriously i would say.
she has changed.
y?
we have no idea.

she has become more weird.
more violent i would say.
more red then be4.
no more d funi, emo n joyful evilM ady.

P said dat she is jz normal oni towards her.
no difference at all.
"might be she jz treat both of u differently".
dats wat she said.

i say dat there could be a reason y she did dat.
but its kinda odd seeing her being like dat.
H broke up wif her G2.
y? coz of her attitude.
im not talking 2 her.
y? same reason wif H..
she has changed tremendously.

H n i were talking casually until i told him dat i broke wif S ady.
then he asked me,
"isn't it odd wen ever he comes 2 d hse, u do see him rite?
dnt u remember wat u guys use 2 do in d past?
dnt u feel like talking 2 him?
or doing things you used 2 do?
wont u gv each other another chance?
or are wanting some1 better?"

i oni cn answer him,
"i do..
but wen he comes, he talk 2 my bro..
i would just buat bodoh wen he comes over or most-most i would jz walk away or go out for a walk or something la...
i do feel like 1 2 talk 2 him, but i got 2 accept d fact rite?
n..
its a nope 2 both..."

*i rather be single..
its way much better...
=]

haih, but wat can i do? we were in such state where by i gt bad stuff happen twice ady..
*crap~!
all we cn do is 2 stare at each other wen ever we manage 2 see each other..


later on BD came 2 me and ask me about my class package. d day before punya convo was continued.
funi.
tough.
hahahaha!
so BD n i talk n talk.
we were talking until d state of girls.
he seriously shy wif girls.
seriously man!
but somehow i find him dat he dares 2 talk 2 me.
d human dat use 2 seat beside play wif him during tt classes.
i feel kinda proud about it tough.
lol.

den we talked about manga.
he oni reads oni 2.
one piece n bleech..
O.O""
lol.
i read more then dat..
so dnt bother asking wat manga is it..
lol.


our nights we on jz like dat..
we did not about it anything longer...

dnt 1 2 remember d pass anymore..
2 me, past is a place whereby u will get stab n strangle over n over again...
past is a place of hell..
good memories r d oni 1's dat r meant 2 be kept overall..
not d bad 1's..
bad 1's makes u cry over n over agn...

bad day.... & a satisfying night

shit man...
i have been a very bad day..
a very bad 1 okay?

2day morning,
got up late..
was totally late 4 el tuition...

in d car, every1 got scolded 4 not doing el hmwk..
hahaha!
seriously got bombed..
xD

lol

got bak home...
argued wif mom..
*agn...

n now..
counseling BD...
hehe
nice 2 council him tough...
xD

so dis wat we were talking..

D]35H@!- so, found any leng lui ady?

BD- not really. not at all.

D]35H@!- how come?

BD- me not lengzhai also....

D]35H@!- ...
Lol
but ur heart is 1 rite?
lol

BD-ya gua...

D]35H@!- gua? say yes oni la...
lol

BD- yes

D]35H@!- hahahahhaa!
gd!
wat ppl care is heart
not face
alrite

BD- oo
but my weak point is not d face...
its im freakin SHY

D]35H@!- lol
den stop being shy la..
start mixing around wif ppl...

BD- i'll try...

D]35H@!- dnt 1 try..
jz do it..
trust me..
u will be a lot happier..

BD- ok

well later on..
we continued our convo about manga(comic) n so on..
xD

now my night is jz like dat
no excitement n so on..
haizz...